My little boy just turned 10 weeks old. That means I only have a couple weeks of maternity leave left. This time has gone by slowly (sometimes the days feel long when I’m at home all day and not doing much except caring for baby), but also too quickly. Jaylen had a rough morning at his 2 month doctor appointment by getting 3 shots and another vaccine to drink. It broke my heart to see him cry harder with each vaccine injection. :( But other than that, he had a great check-up and is perfectly healthy and growing well.
This week I took Jaylen to visit my co-workers at Tyndale and also to visit Gerald’s class and his co-workers. We got stopped in the hall at his school every few feet by more teachers who wanted to ooh and ahh over the baby. That’s what happens when you work in a female-dominated profession. People usually ask how we’re doing and how he’s sleeping. He sleeps about 3-4 hours in a row at night, sometimes less and sometimes more (though this only happened once so far). Apparently this is normal though for a breastfed baby according to the pediatrician. Somehow God made it so parents can function on very little sleep.
As for how we’re doing, I say we’re doing alright. We’re adjusting to this new normal. A new normal that includes:
- Interrupted sleep
- Letting dirty dishes sit in the sink and household chores that don’t get done
- Staring at Jaylen’s adorable face all day (for me)
- Getting up hours ahead of time when preparing to go somewhere because it takes twice as long to get ready
- Lots of outfit changes for me and for baby because of spit up (or diaper blowouts)
- Doing laundry almost daily because of the spit up and blowouts
- Cars that feel a lot smaller because of all the baby gear
- Enjoying lots of smiles and cooing from our smiley 2 month old :)
- Getting peed on various times a day (the joys of baby boys)
- Speed-eating during meals or taking turns to eat
- More time with family (the grandparents mostly want to see the baby, not so much us ;-P)
- Naps with my newborn
- Looking in awe at this little person we created and being amazed at how awesome he is
A lot of these things seem negative, but they’re really not that bad. I think of it as our badge of parenthood. We wouldn’t be parents if we didn’t get spit up on or peed on. It’s definitely not easy being a new parent, but when we look at our little boy, we can’t help but be filled with love and joy. I can’t believe I’ve been given the privilege of being his mother. It’s a huge responsibility as I think about how what we do now will shape him (in positive and negative ways) in the future. I pray he comes out alright. :) I also love knowing that I’m the main person he depends on for nourishment and comfort right now. I hope that never changes!
So while I sometimes wish I was still pregnant (I actually got more sleep while pregnant) or that I had some of the freedoms I had when we didn’t have Jaylen, I wouldn’t trade life with him for anything. He is so precious and a true gift from God. This newborn stage can be hard, but apparently everyone forgets that and still goes on to have more kids. I know one day I’ll look back and miss this, but for now I guess I’ll try to enjoy all those late night nursing sessions and how my baby won’t let us put him down to sleep sometimes. There will come a day when he’ll be more independent and won’t want to stay in my arms all the time. So I need to try to cherish all these mommy and son times while they last.